Author: doc
Subject:
'A Dance Perfect for Two' -- Part 1a -- January 2008 HBX
Challenge
A Dance Perfect for Two by doc
AN:
This is my answer to the January 2008 HBX Challenge.
The story
takes place after the episode ‘Touchdown.’ Harm manages
to land the C-130 on the USS Seahawk, save multiple lives, and then
as a reward, is fired by the CIA when his face shows up on a
newscast. Imagine the scenario in this story takes place instead of
‘Back in the Saddle,’ and Harm finds his way back to JAG
and Mac in a slightly different manner.
A fortune I submitted
for the Christmas ficathon is the inspiration for this piece, along
with a little Winnie-the-Pooh. What does Winnie-the-Pooh have to do
with JAG you ask? Well, step inside and find out.
In the
meantime, ponder the notion, ‘Every man is a volume if you know
how to read him.’
***
Disclaimer: I don’t
own JAG or any of the characters. I just take them out and play with
them on occasion before replacing them safe and sound back on the
shelf. The ‘Poohisms,’ which appear in italics,
originate from the books written by A. A. Milne, ‘Winnie-the-Pooh’
and ‘The House At Pooh Corner’.
Please excuse the
omissions, misspellings and errors. The mistakes are all mine. Mom
had no part in the proofing of this tale.
***
A
Dance Perfect for Two
"I don't see much sense in
that," said Rabbit. "No," said Pooh humbly, "there
isn't. But there was going to be when I began it. It's just that
something happened to it along the way." – A. A. Milne,
‘Winnie-the Pooh’
Part 1a
The
First Inklings of Dusk
October 2003
The Pacific Northwest
She
carefully maneuvered the rental car along the tree-lined gravel
roadway searching for the driveway amongst the overgrown vegetation.
She’d almost missed the turn-off for the rustic single-lane
road from the main highway a mile back. If it hadn’t been for
Frank’s explicit directions, she would’ve found herself
lost long ago. The rental car’s GPS system was worthless in
this sparsely populated area of civilization. After receiving the
call last night, she’d secured emergency leave, no easy feat
considering the Admiral’s current belligerent mood. The first
flight out that morning had landed her in Portland early afternoon,
but the small commuter flight to the closest regional airport,
resulted in a late car trip into the wilderness of Oregon. The
initial leg of the journey had provided her with magnificent scenery
allowing her to get lost amongst her tumultuous thoughts and
misgivings. As the roadways became narrower, more deserted and
treacherous, her entire being converged on the preordained task of
arriving safely at her final destination. Just as well, she mused
trying to ignore the inevitable confrontation ahead. As quickly as
the troublesome thought coalesced, the narrow gravel lane opened into
the wide expanse of a spectacular vista.
She rolled the car to
a stop in the circular drive and peered up to the impressive house,
which lie ahead. “Fishing cabin,” she snorted under her
breath, removing the keys from the ignition. Most folks would hardly
consider the towering log structure jutting out from the mountainside
a mere ‘cabin’. She retrieved her bag from the trunk and
started up the limestone steps to the front door. The house was
constructed of huge boulders and rough-hewn logs interconnected in
intricate patterns. Large windows flanked the front door providing a
panoramic view straight through the house to the sparkling lake
beyond.
Pausing to take a deep calming breath, she placed her
palm flat against the cool surface of the paneled wood door, and
peered through the glass side panels. The great room spread
invitingly just past the front foyer. The large-scaled furniture was
upholstered in rich brown leather, woven throw rugs adorned the
beautifully aged hardwood floors in subtle masculine patterns, and a
stuffed deer’s head towered high on the stone fireplace. An
eight-point buck, she mused, all the while shaking her head. The
proffered incentive of a quiet weekend at a ‘rustic fishing
cabin’ proved amusing in light of the elaborate surroundings
more befitting of a Ralph Lauren catalog spread.
The
unexpected opulence contrasted sharply against the backdrop of
nature’s rough canvas intensifying her sense of unease. A fine
tremor of foreboding skittered down her arms like an electrical
impulse from the tense muscles in her neck, weighted down by the
oppressive blanket of frosty unwelcomeness. She held no delusions of
a jubilant yearned-for reunion. Seventeen unanswered phone calls
attested to her lack of significance in his life. But still, she’d
promised. And rebuffed or not, she intended to follow through.
Despite her inconsequence to him, he still held the lofty position of
supreme importance in her life. Even after months of solitude and
silence, her heart refused to give up. Steeling her resolve, she
straightened her spine one vertebra at a time, and stoically
commenced with her task.
Her breath seized in her throat, as
she briskly struck the wrought iron doorknocker, and waited for a
chilly response. When no answer was forthcoming, she tried the
knocker once more, before jiggling the latched handle of the door.
The lock held strong and ghostly silence reigned in the house. The
sun continued to dip toward the horizon; its brilliant reflection
masked by the towering trees. Turning back toward the drive, she
noticed for the first time the absence of any other vehicles, save
her own. Frustration and exhaustion warred as victors, and tears
momentarily stung her eyes. She knew she should’ve called
before venturing all this way, but opted for the element of surprise.
Trish had sworn he’d be here, but the serene surroundings of
the remote wilderness held no signs of life, apart from the occasion
squawk of a bird or the rustling wind.
Weighing her next move,
she knew there was little chance of retracing her journey before
nightfall, and the terrain had proved treacherous enough by light.
She shifted the leather satchel onto her right shoulder, and slowly
made her way to the side of the house. If luck held out, perhaps
there was a back way into this ‘gentleman’s’
sporting retreat.
Weaving through shrubbery and willowy pines,
she followed a narrow pea-gravel path around the slope, and ducked
between the massive posts supporting the cedar deck above. As she
passed each window, she gave the casings a gentle shake, but none
budged or gave-way. As she rounded the backside of the house, she
halted in wide-eyed awe gasping for breath. The view was spectacular,
straight out of heaven. And in that moment, she knew why he came:
Seclusion…Peace…Healing.
The summit of the
hilltop gave way in a languid descent toward the beautiful icy blue
water of the private lake. The landscape was dotted with lacy
evergreens and soaring trees resplendent in vibrant fall foliage of
orange and reds and browns. Gentle waves skimmed the surface of the
water as far as the eye could see, before cresting in white foam to
lap the rocky shore. And the orange fireball of the sun blazed ahead,
reflecting brilliantly off the water like shimmering diamonds, as it
began its plunge toward the horizon below. Her hand automatically
rose to shield her eyes from the blinding radiance, even as she
shivered in the chilly autumn winds dancing off the shore. The skies
above moved and morphed in color and clarity, as the clouds coalesced
around the sun, leaving an artist’s rendition of utopia in
shades of coral, purple, and gold. Even as a child camped in the
isolated deserts of Arizona, she’s couldn’t remember a
more celestial sight.
When her occasional shivers grew to
shaking chills in the cold October night, she roused from her musing
to seek out other signs of life. Venturing further into the wooded
yard, she peered up toward the window-lined backside of the cabin. A
red cedar deck ran the full length of the house along the main level.
Comfortable Adirondack chairs surrounded a large table, while two
rockers sat side-by-side at the edge of the railing facing the
majestic view. Wandering further still, she located the staircase
that rose to meet the deck above. Just as she began to ascend the
stairs, she felt the emptiness of his heart call out to hers. Drawn
with unfailing accuracy, she pivoted on the stair and caught sight of
a pier jutting off the shore toward the waterline, almost hidden by a
canopy of trees. A fishing boat bobbed off the side moored to its
planking. And at the end of the pier, desolate and alone, sat another
chair with its occupant slouched and nearly hidden from view.
The
wind whipped and tousled his dark hair, now clearly longer and
uncharacteristically wild. His slumped position and motionless
demeanor screamed isolation and defeat. And her heart lurched in pain
at the emotional distance it felt. She stood paralyzed for long
minutes, as she quelled her fears and sought divine guidance to cope
with his tenuous state. Anger, resentment, loathing, these she could
deal with, it would hurt, but she was determined to overcome. But the
desolate heart calling to hers, belonged to a man who had
surrendered…given up…quit. That Harm she’d never
encountered, and wasn’t quite sure how to help. It was as if
he’d lost everything of value and merit, and with it his soul.
He looked like a child who’d lost his only and best friend.
That revelation hit her like a ton of bricks, and in that moment she
knew exactly what to do. She descended the stairs and was crossing
the yard before giving her feet the conscious command.
“You
can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to
you. You have to go to them sometimes,” she muttered to
herself, quoting from Pooh. All the while shaking her head with
amusement, “…Mountain, here comes Mohammad.”
She
paused before stepping onto the pier and clutched her coat more
tightly around her lithe frame. The wind off the lake was frigid and
bit into her skin, chilling her to the bone. She wondered how long
he’d been sitting on the pier, and fear seized her heart. The
worry provided the incentive to propel her forward in her quest.
He
stiffened when she got close, but continued to stare straight ahead,
never once turning in her direction. “What are you doing here,
Mac?” he voice was raspy and hard.
“I, um,”
she stammered, cleared her voice and tried again, “…I
came to check on you.”
“Why?”
“I
heard you needed a friend,” she shrugged her shoulders as she
dropped her leather satchel beside his chair.
His gaze
remained transfixed on the horizon, as he groused, “Again, I
ask why?”
“Harm…”
“Mom
called you,” he interrupted, “…well, you can turn
around and head right back to Webb.”
Hackles raised, she
glared at the back of his head, “I’m not with…”
She caught herself and inhaled deeply to stem the automatic
response. He was lashing out in self-defense and hurt, and her anger
would serve no purpose, except to alienate him further.
She
cautiously took a few more steps, until she was situated a foot
beyond his chair at the end of the pier. A quick glance behind,
assured he was watching with guarded eye. The sun was now at
half-mast and the sky rapidly darkening. She shivered as the
temperature continued to fall, and thrust her hands into her
pockets.
“Beautiful sunsets you have here,” she
uttered softly, “…this place is amazing. I can see why
you came.”
“Mac, I’m not in the mood for
small talk,” he scrubbed a hand over his face.
“’kay,”
she peered back with a disarming smile, “…but I’m
gonna have to plead for hospitality. I’ll never find my way
back into town on those mountain roads in the dark.”
He
sighed heavily, but didn’t respond.
She turned around to
face him, smile still in place. “It’s good to see ya,
Harm. I’ve missed you…we all have.”
“Yeah,
I’m sure…” he mumbled with disdain.
“You
know, you could’ve let at least one of know you were
alive…”
“MAC!” he bellowed, “…I
told you…”
“I’m sorry,” she
held out her arms in defense, “…I didn’t mean…
Ah, look…I, ah…”
“Why are you
here?”
“Harm, I’m sorry about Beth,”
she reached out to touch his arm, but he jerked away from her
grasp.
“I knew it!” he exploded. “I knew mom
called you! Why else would you bother to come after all this
time?!”
She tried to mask the hurt of his words and
actions, choosing to focus instead on controlling the tremble in her
voice. “I would’ve come sooner, if you’d returned
my calls. You’ve been a difficult man to find.”
“What?
Webb not giving up info?” he sneered. “I imagined with
all that pillow talk…”
“Harm!”
She
turned away to study the fleeting sun. Emotions back under control,
she spoke softly but with intensity, “I’m only gonna say
this once. I’m not with Webb. We shared a harrowing experience,
and as a result have established a mutual friendship.”
He
snorted in disbelief.
“It’s nice to have someone
to talk to,” she shrugged and turned back to face him, “…at
one time that used to be you.”
He studied the planks at
his feet and whispered softly, “Well, that choice was all
yours, Mac. I’m not the one that said never.”
“I
used to believe in forever . . . but forever was too good to be
true,” the threatening tears quivered in her
voice.
“What?” his eyes flew to hers.
“Nothing,”
she shook her head, “…it’s just something from
Winnie-the-Pooh. He and I have a lot in common these days.”
“We’re
clearly speaking two different languages, and I’m too tired to
keep up,” he leaned forward, elbows on knees, and head propped
in his hands. “Look, if you need a place to crash tonight, you
can take the bedroom on the main floor. The bed’s all made up
and there’s a bathroom attached.”
“Harm, I
don’t wanna displace you…”
“It’s
okay,” he waved her off, “…I can crash on the
couch or head up to the loft. Not sleeping much these days, anyways,”
he muttered into his hand.
She walked past him, and reached
down for her satchel, before pausing to stand behind his chair.
Cautiously, she rested a gentle hand on his back, “Harm, if you
need to talk about Beth, I’m here.”
When he didn’t
respond after several seconds, she almost walked away. Almost.
Instead, she slipped her fingers into the hair at the nape of his
neck, and caressed the icy cold skin found there. And she
waited.
Finally he spoke in haunting voice, “I should’ve
been there to save her.”
When he didn’t continue,
she maintained the light-stroking caress, and softly encouraged.
“Your mom said they let you go before her last mission…it
wasn’t your fault, Harm. The Company needed to protect her…not
you.”
“But she was my partner,” his voice
cracked.
“I know you feel the need to rescue us all…even
if we don’t deserve it, and the price is too high,” tears
ringed her eyes and dropped down her cheeks.
“It’s
never too high,” his voice grew softer, “…I’m
glad you’re alive.”
“Still…”
He
leaned forward out of her reach, uncomfortable with the direction of
the conversation. “Mac, you should head inside…the door
off the deck is unlocked.”
“Aren’t you
coming?” she pleaded.
“Later.”
“Harm,
you’re freezing…you need to come…”
“Leave
me alone, Mac!” he snarled.
“’kay,”
her voice was soft and wounded, no longer able to hide the hurt.
As
she turned to leave, he spoke in misery, “I’m not very
good at relationships, am I?”
“What?” She
stopped mid turn.
“Renee said it…” his
voice trailed off.
“Why did she say that?” her
voice rose with incredulity. The nerve of that stupid woman. Years
later, and they were still paying the price for their
miscommunication and mistakes related to Mic Brumby and Renee
Peterson.
“Because,” he shrugged, “…she
said, I don’t like to let people in.”
She rounded
the chair, and knelt before him, seeking out his darting eyes. “You
listen to me,” she cupped his chin, “…Renee didn’t
know what she was talking about.” He tried to pull away, but
she didn’t relinquish her hold. “Harm, the problem isn’t
that you don’t let people in…it’s that you let
them in too much. When you care about someone, they become a part of
you. They’re embedded so deeply in your heart, that you feel
every hurt, every pain, every injustice right along with them. Some
people care too much…I think it's called love.”
He
looked away from the intensity of her gaze, refusing to acknowledge
her words. Her thumb stroked gentle circles over his stubble-roughed
cheek.
“You can’t save the whole world, Sailor…or
you’ll eventually lose yourself,” her words were gentle
and endearing, filled with love, “…and I couldn’t
bear that.”
He pulled away at the utterance of the old
nickname, closing out the overwhelming emotions, “I’m not
a sailor anymore, Mac.”
“Well, I might have
something to say about that,” she stood up and stretched her
legs.
“You in charge now?” he groused to escape
the heaviness of the previous moment.
“No,” she
stared out into the night. The sky was nearly black, and the wind was
picking up. “But the Admiral is having second thoughts.”
“He
figure I already learned my lesson wrestling alligators,” he
reached for the satisfied comfort of his righteous indignation. It
was an emotion with which he had intimate experience of
late.
“Harm!” she glared at him in
warning.
“What?!” he sat back in his chair and
cast her a look that vacillated somewhere between wariness and
contempt. She bit her tongue to control the automatic retort, and
walked past him to head inside.
“Besides, I’m
pretty sure Webb wouldn’t be too happy about that,” he
sneered. So much for comfort, he was headed straight for pain.
That
comment froze her in her tracks. She clenched and unclenched her
fists, breathing deeply. When she turned back around, there was fire
in her eyes. He watched her defiantly march back in his direction,
stopping beside his chair, nostrils flaring. And then, a bizarre
expression crossed her face. He squinted in concentration trying to
discern her mood. Her brow was furrowed, mouth tight, but amusement
danced in her eyes. The whole situation unsettled and excited him in
a way he couldn’t quite place. He didn’t know whether to
laugh or run for his life.
Just as he was about to decide on
the later, she reached out her hand and pinched his left earlobe. He
jumped from surprise more than pain, and tried to pull away, but she
held tight, leaned forward and peered inside. Her breath came out in
tiny warm puffs, as she tried to control her laughter. The flustering
sensation tickled his cheek and spread goosebumps down his neck. He
shivered as her simple touch sent shockwaves to his heart, and warmth
all the way to his toes. And still, she stood and examined.
“Mac!”
he batted at her arm. “What’re you doing?”
She
giggled softly, but didn’t utter a word. Her silence unnerved
him more, and he fought to pull away. Her fingers stuck like
glue.
“I promise I have a brain,” he sighed in
frustration, “…it’s not empty in there.”
She
just continued to study his ear. A gust of cold wind blew past his
face, wafting the scent of her perfume and a wayward strand of her
hair to tickle his nose. He reached up to grasp her wrist, encircling
it with his fingers. She remained completely unfazed and stared
straight ahead.
“If you blow in it, music doesn’t
come out the other side,” his fingers flexed and tightened
around her skin. Her hands were cold as ice. So, how was it, they
made him feel warm?
With one final caress and a short pull,
she relinquished her grasp and stood up, a beautiful smile on her
face. He reached up and roughly rubbed his earlobe, all the while
glaring at her in disbelief.
“Mind telling me what you
were doing?” he grumped.
“Looking for fluff,”
she shrugged lightheartedly, and her smile grew. Who needed the sun,
he thought absently. The unbidden notion served to disconcert him
more.
“What?” He frowned at her instead, thinking
she’d finally lost her mind.
“Fluff,” she
giggled and reached down to retrieve her leather satchel. Searching
through the tote, she withdrew two objects and extended the first to
him. “Here, this is for you.”
He eyed the bear
suspiciously. She extended it further, “Go ahead…he
won’t bite.”
When he refused to take the stuffed
animal, she set it gently in his lap. His fingers stroked over the
knobby fur of the golden bear, taking note of areas that were worn
and threadbare. He even encountered a roughened spot or two, and some
stickiness here and there. The poor thing was even missing an
eye.
He looked up at her, eyebrow raised, and regarded her
bemused expression. His mouth gaped open and closed, before he found
his voice.
“Mac, what’s this?” he extended
the stuffed animal and gave it a gentle shake to accentuate his
point.
“Pooh,” she giggled and shrugged, giving
nothing a way.
“I can see that,” he huffed, “…but
why are you giving it to me?” He shook his head in confusion;
she was starting to freak him out.
“It’s not from
me…it’s from AJ.” She extended a book, “This
is from me.” He ignored the book and threw her an incredulous
look.
“AJ?!” She really was worrying him now. “Why
would the Admiral…”
“Not that AJ! Your
godson, AJ,” she rolled her eyes. He really had been
incommunicado for too long.
“Ohhh,” he dropped his
eyes to the bear, and tapped its snout. Glancing back up in question,
“But why?”
“’Cuz, he thought you
needed a friend, too.” When he furrowed his brow in question,
she explained, “AJ gave it to me a few months back. After,”
her voice dipped along with her head, “…after Paraguay.
He knew I was, um…sad,” she dug her toe into the
planking of the pier. Harm leaned closer to hear her voice over the
howling wind.
“AJ and I started spending more time
together, after you…” She sighed and hugged the book to
her chest, “Anyways, we began reading the Winnie-the-Pooh
series. At first, I did it to give Harriet a break, what with the new
baby and all, but then…it was just fun to spend time with AJ.
Pooh was one of his most prized possessions, kinda like his buddy.”
Harm glanced down at the stuffed bear and again noted its tattered
and threadbare countenance, clearly denoting usage and love. “One
night, he gave it to me. He said I needed a friend, and after all,”
she raised her voice to match little AJ’s higher pitch and
cadence, “…Pooh says, ‘It’s so much more
friendly with two’. AJ figured he didn’t need Pooh so
much anymore, since he had Jimmy…but he thought you and I
could use a friend.”
When she looked up, her smile had
dimmed, and her eyes were suspiciously bright. She once again
extended the book, and he took it from her hand. The title read ‘The
Complete TALES of Winnie-the Pooh’.
“I thought
you might find it interesting,” she smiled, “…for
a stuffed bear who spends a lot of time bumping on his head, he’s
pretty wise.” He quirked his brow, and a slight smile played on
his lips.
“Um, if you wanna know about the ‘fluff’,”
she tapped the marker buried within the book, “…I think
you’ll find the reference, just about there.”
“Ahhh,”
his eyes twinkled as he nodded his head.
She winked back, “I’m
gonna head inside and try to warm up.” She shifted the tote
onto her shoulder, “You coming along?”
“Not
yet,” he stared back out to the water, “…in a bit,
I just need to think for a while.”
“’kay,
see ya inside,” she reached out and ran her fingers across his
neck, burying them in his hair. When he leaned back slightly into her
palm, she tugged on the wayward strands hanging over his collar. “You
need a haircut…this is hardly regulation, Sailor.”
He
shrugged, but didn’t pull away, “I’m not in the
Navy anymore, Marine.”
“We’ll see about
that,” she whispered and traced her fingertips over his ear and
onto to his stubbled cheek, “…could use a shave
too.”
He shrugged again, “Same
answer.”
Continuing to caress his cheek, she leaned over
and kissed the crown of his head. “See ya in the morning,
flyboy,” she nuzzled her cheek against the soft strands for a
moment, before heading inside.
His eyes never left the water
to acknowledge her departure, but his palm rose to cup the skin of
his cheek, trying to retain her warmth.
He sat there staring
at the twinkling night sky for almost an hour, lost in thought, in
regrets…in what ifs. By the time he stood to head back inside,
his hands and feet were numb from the cold. He clutched the stuffed
bear and the prized book to his chest for fear of dropping them into
the water, as he made his way along the pier. His knees creaked and
groaned with stiffness as he climbed the stairs to the deck. And when
he stepped inside the quiet house, his eyes flickered around the
great room hoping to find her still up. Much to his dismay, she was
nowhere to be found, but there was a blazing fire in the fireplace,
no doubt intended to warm his chilled bones, and maybe if he was
lucky his soul. A note rested on the end table beside the couch,
alerting him to the fresh pot of coffee in the kitchen, and a veggie
sandwich and pasta salad in the fridge.
Opting only for
coffee, in need of the physical warmth, he disregarded the sandwich
and salad. His appetite seemed to be the perpetual victim of life’s
recent events. He settled into the sofa, wrapping himself in the
chenille throw, and eyed the proffered book with suspicion. His
fingers skimmed over the smooth jacket, flipped the hardback cover
open and closed, and fanned through the pages. Finally, he tucked the
stuffed Pooh bear into the crook of his arm and began to read the
tale. Tempted to check the dog-eared pages first, he forced himself
to start at the beginning.
‘Here is EDWARD BEAR,
coming downstairs now, bump, bump, bump, on the back of his head,
behind Christopher Robin. It is, as far as he knows, the only way of
coming downstairs, but sometimes he feels that there is another way,
if only he could stop bumping for a moment and think of it. And then
he feels that perhaps…’
It was midnight by
the time he came to the purported phrase, and he laughed aloud as he
read it the third time through. ‘If the person you are
talking to doesn't appear to be listening, be patient. It may simply
be that he has a small piece of fluff in his ear.’
Setting
the book aside for the night, he wiped his bleary eyes and huddled
deeper into the warmth of the blanket. The fire had long since died
out, and the room held a definite chill. Resting his head against the
back of the couch, he contemplated sleep, and whether it would prove
elusive again tonight, in deference to the demons of his dreams.
Twisting his body sideways, he reclined against the armrest and
attempted to get comfortable. The waistband of his jeans tugged and
pulled, and his bulky sweater bunched in all the wrong places.
Sighing in annoyance, he rolled off the couch and started toward the
bedroom in search of his sweats. He paused at the entrance to the
master suite, remembering he’d given the room to Mac.
The
door was only partially closed allowing him to peek his head inside.
The room was nearly dark, save for the moonlight streaming through
the rear windows. Apparently, she’d forgotten to close the
shutters when turning in for the night. He listened closely for
sounds of stirring, but detected only her light even breathing. He
pushed the heavy door aside, and cringed when the hinges creaked in
protest. Pausing briefly to scan the bed, he crept on inside. He
crossed to the dresser and carefully opened the drawer retrieving his
sleep clothes, and quickly changed in the bath. As he turned to exit
the room, he froze spellbound at the captivating sight.
She
was asleep on her side; moonlight illuminating her lovely features.
Tresses of darkened silk spilled over the pillowcase, crowning her
head. The blanket slipped down around her waist, left she huddled and
shivering in the cold. He tiptoed to the bedside, and reached for the
covers, pulling them up higher. His hand caught on something fuzzy
and soft wrapped around her arm. He gently tugged on the mysterious
object clutched about her hand, and withdrew his plaid flannel shirt.
He remembered discarding the garment on the chair earlier that
morning. Her hands moved and searched in her sleep, seeking out and
locating the soft flannel. She cradled the shirt to her chest,
rubbing the collar against her cheek, before settling in quietness
once more.
His heart bloomed with contentment for the first
time in months, finding comfort and hope in that one simple gesture.
He drew the blanket up to her shoulders, then pulled the down
comforter up from the foot of the bed. Tucking her in warm and tight,
he ran his fingers through her hair, and gently caressed her cheek.
He studied her in the moonbeams, and for the first time, noticed the
hollowness of her cheeks, the dark circles under her eyes, and the
thinning of her face. It seemed she too survived in the shadows of
nightmares. He silently leaned forward, arching over her prostrate
form, to place a lingering kiss atop her brow. Burying his nose in
the hair of her temple, he inhaled deeply and reveled in the long
missed, but nary forgotten scent that played a staring role in his
dreams.
Stepping away from the bed, he tripped over an errant
pillow fallen upon the floor. Lifting the object, he started to cast
it aside, when an idea kindled and caught fire burning bright. His
smile curled in and grew with impish delight. He scurried from the
bedroom in search of the requisite tools. Once gathered, he returned
to the master suite to implement his clandestine plan.
Twenty
minutes later, his eyes sparkled with approval, and he grinned in
unbridled glee. Yes, he decided, this was just what was needed to
bridge their lingering divide. Task complete, he backed away,
settling into the corner armchair to watch over her sleep. Despite a
well-fought battle, his eyes soon drifted shut. And the nightmares
never came.
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Continued in Part 1b…