Title: Intervention
Author:
Holly
Rating: PG
Prompt: Jerseygirl353
The prompt was pretty specific, so
I've put it at the end of the story so as not to spoil.
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HARM’S LOFT
NORTH
OF UNION STATION
WASHINGTON, D.C.
“Hey Harm,”
Mattie Grace called as she tapped on the door and opened it in one
slow motion move on her way in after practice Thursday evening.
“Hey
yourself! How was practice?”
“Cool. You’re
home earlier then usual. What’s up?” Mattie slid onto the
chair at the island as Harm prepared something for their dinner. It
was too soon for her to be sure what it was.
“I’ve
got to head out early in the morning for a case that’s being
heard in Norfolk, so I’d thought I’d fix a decent meal
for us tonight.”
Mattie had watched him mixing and
dicing vegetables into some kind of pulp like mixture and whatever he
was fixing wasn’t something familiar to her palate. “Oh
yeah...so when did you change your menu to this?”
“Ow...I’m
wounded...you’re as bad as Mac. I’ll have you know that
this loaf I make is healthy nutritious and one of my favorites.
Served with a baked potato and tossed salad it is an excellent
meal.”
Mattie groaned. “Is this that toxic waste
Mac told me about?”
“It’s not that bad,”
Harm insisted as he shaped the pasty odd colored mixture into a loaf
pan and slipped it into the oven with the potatoes already baking.
Harm had learned the recipe from a chef in training he had
dated years ago. Her entry had won a prize in a contest and she had
admitted she had made it for him due to his vegetarian tendencies.
He’d made it for Mac the first time but had admittedly
forgotten an important ingredient. He’d made it since then and
she had eaten it and admitted it was not as bad as she made it sound
after the first failed attempt.
Mattie watched him doubtfully,
knowing full well that Mac had also admitted to his future attempts
and they turned out to be decent after all. However, Mattie wanted to
find out more about this relationship between Harm and Mac.
Ever
since she had been picked up by Mac and brought to Harm at the
Vietnam Memorial Wall in Christmas eve, she had watched the two of
them dancing back and forth around each other.
First Mac had
declared in court that she wanted Harm to be the father of her
children, but then she hadn’t joined them in church that night
but rushed to Mattie’s rescue and convinced her father and the
judge to let her be with Harm.
Harm was always talking about
Mac, yet they didn’t seem to date and she needed to know if
that was just because she was there or because they didn’t want
to. They confused her and she wanted to know more.
Susan, her
friend from school, had let her borrow a tape recorder so she could
use it to try and get information from each of them. After listening
to their answers together, they thought maybe they could figure the
two military officers out. Susan came from a military type family and
lost her own Dad. It had given them a point of reference to bound
over - the loss of a parent.
Reaching her hand in her pocket
to activate the recorder, she decided to go for it with Harm now as
he was in a talkative mood.
“Harm, how do you know when
you’re in love?” Mattie asked trying to be nonchalant
with her question when her heart was pounding wondering if this would
work.
“You’re too young for a boyfriend
Mattie.”
“No I”m not...I’m
fifteen...but this is just hypothetical so don’t get your
knickers in a knot, Harm.”
“Mattie,” Harm
warned with his look and tone.
“What? It’s a
simple question. When will I know I’m in love? I want to be
ready when it happens.”
Harm studied her a minute as he
worked on their salad. He’d thought she was at an age where the
tough questions had already been answered, like “What’s
sex?” but this one seemed as bad to him at the moment, so Harm
did what Harm did best when he was put on the spot. He asked a
question in return.
“What do you think it would be
like?”
“I have no clue. I wanted you to tell
me...unless you don’t know. Have you ever been in
love?”
“Yes...at least I think I was.”
“How
did it feel? How did you know?”
“I’m not
sure...I didn’t realize it until it was too late...and she was
gone.”
“She move on waiting for you to
decide?”
“No! Actually she was murdered.”
“Oh...”
Mattie hadn’t counted on this. Well she hadn’t kept a
business running at fourteen without having some gumption so she
pressed on. “That’s the only time you’ve been in
love?”
“No...why do you need to know?”
“Come
on Harm...I’m trying to be prepared when it happens to me. I
see kids at school claiming to be in love one day and not the next
and then others that you just know are. How do they know and what
kinds of things can trick you?”
“Don’t you
have an easy question for me?”
“Nope, not
tonight,” Mattie laughed.
“Alright...let’s
see...well, I guess when I take the time to think how I would feel if
that person was never in my life again and it seems too painful to
think about...I know that I have a bond with the person. Sometimes
its just friendship though, unless you find that you want to be
physically close to the person as well. I sometimes don’t
always know myself at first but them when it hits you...well lets
just say that when you find it in yourself to walk away from someone
so they can find happiness when all you want to do it hold them close
to you...you know.”
“You mean you want to kiss
them and make out with them?”
“Mattie! You’re
too young for me to discuss stuff like that with you.”
“No
I’m not. Is that what happened with Mac? Did she want something
she thought would make her happy so you let her go?”
“Yes...how
did this become about me and Mac?”
“You do love
her though right?”
“Yes...” Harm felt the
sweat lightly coating his body. Mattie was getting into territory he
wasn’t yet ready to accept. He had been so sure that he and Mac
would be closer then ever when they left Paraguay right up until she
said they would never work. His chest still hurt him when he thought
of that moment.
Suddenly he needed to be alone. He didn’t
want to hurt Mattie, but it was killing him to talk about Mac when
they were so far apart these days.
“Mattie, go change
out of your school clothes. Give me a half an hour or so, then come
over for dinner.”
“You booting me out?”
“For
a few minutes.”
“Can we talk more about this
then?”
“Not tonight, Mattie.”
“Okay.”
Disappointed yet recognizing when she’d pushed him too far too
fast, she stopped the mini-recorder in her pocket. She wanted to hear
what she’s gotten anyway so she hopped down and headed to the
apartment she shared with Jennifer.
Harm held back his pain
until Mattie closed the door behind her and then he walked out of his
kitchen to his bedroom. Sitting on his bed he took the picture of him
and Mac out of the bedside table and looked at it. They had been so
close in the desert and then later in the hospital waiting to hear if
Bud would make it. That whole year had been an amazing journey. He
had realized that he wanted to commit to Mac more then anyone he had
ever known. More then with Annie who had really been about having a
family he had finally admitted to himself, the life his friend Lucas
had lived until his tragic death. More then with Diane when he had
realized it was too late for them to be a reality.
Harm had
always felt close to Mac, but had put her in the category of someone
you didn’t think about in ‘that’ way out of respect
and because it just wasn’t right. When he had finally realized
that he was suppressing those feelings, back when she was engaged to
Mic, he had thought he was doing the right think by keeping quite and
letting her find happiness with Mic. It wasn’t until her
engagement party that he had given in and kissed her like his life
had depended on it. Yet she had walked away from him to Mic.
When
he had crashed and almost died trying to be there for her wedding,
Mic had known what they hadn’t admitted to themselves until it
was too late. Harm would always respect him for walking away from Mac
knowing he wasn’t the man that would make her happy. He would
also hate him for inflicting hurt on her...but then he hated himself
at times for hurting Mac too.
Yet they had tried to put it
all behind them at the Jag-a-thon and start over. They had reached
the point where he was ready to risk it all with Mac, when things
began to boil over with his new found half-brother and Lt. Singer.
One wrong step after another had landed him in jail and Mac on an
assignment with Webb, that he wasn’t sure they would ever
recover from.
He hadn’t given it all up for Mac but she
had rejected him. Yet he knew beyond a shadow of a doubt he would do
it all again for her...because he loved her. She was the most
important person in his life now. If only he could get her to
understand that maybe they still had a chance.
He knew that
Mattie needed him, but he also knew that Mac needed Mattie just as
much. When he got back from Norfolk tomorrow night, he was going to
try to get Mac and Mattie together for a little bonding time.
NEXT
DOOR
SAME TIME
“Susan, you should hear him talk about
Mac. I’m convinced more then ever that he loves her. I’ve
got to find a way to get Mac alone to ask her the same
question.”
“You are going to record that too
aren’t you? I mean how can I help you figure those two out if I
don’t hear both sides?”
“You’ll hear
what ever I get.”
“Good. Recording people is great
isn’t it?”
“Yeah...when they don’t
know it. I tried taping interviews one time and everyone sounded
weird. Harm just sounds like himself.”
“Yeah, when
they don’t know you capture real feelings. My brother taught me
that trick.”
“I’m glad. Now how can I get Mac
alone to talk to her the same way?”
“Well, you
said Harm is going away tomorrow...can’t you call Mac at work
and set up a time after school to talk to her?”
“Maybe...I
can try.”
“Use my cell phone
tomorrow.”
“Okay...thanks.”
NEXT
DAY
LUNCH TIME
“Colonel Mackenzie,” Mac spoke
into the phone that she had answered on her desk as she tried to get
through the mounds of paperwork on her desk.
“Hi...this
is Mattie.”
“Hi Mattie. How are you? Were you
trying to find Harm?”
“No...I mean I know he’s
in Norfolk today on a case and won’t be back until late
tonight...I was wondering if you’re busy later...if we could
maybe get together and talk for awhile.”
“Sure...I
can probably secure today by sixteen hundred...why don’t I pick
you up and we go get a pizza together?”
“Okay...or
you could pick one up and bring it over to Harm’s. We could eat
it there.”
“Alright...if you’d rather. What
do you like on your pizza?”
“Anything with meat!”
Mattie declared.
Laughing Mac responded, “I hear you
there. I’ll get a meat lover’s special and see you at
Harm’s around sixteen thirty.”
“That’s
five thirty right?”
“Sorry, but yes, you’re
right.”
“See you later then.”
“Looking
forward to it.” She had been hoping to get to know Mattie
better and this was a perfect chance.
Her phone ringing again
interrupted her thoughts.
“Hey Colonel.”
“Harm...where
are you?”
“Norfolk still. I’m hoping this
case wraps this afternoon as I thought it would. The members should
get the case this afternoon and could be back shortly with a
decision. It’s a pretty open and shut case.”
“And
you’re winning right?”
“Mac, you can’t
predict what the members will do.”
“I know. Hey, I
had a call a few minutes ago from Mattie.”
“Really.
Is she okay? Does she need me?”
“Relax
Harm...we’re going to get together for pizza tonight...at your
place. You okay with that?”
“Yeah...hey stick
around after you eat and have coffee with me when I get
home.”
“We’ll see how late it is.”
“Okay.
I’m glad you and Mattie are getting to know each other
better.”
“I’m looking forward to it.”
“I’d
better warn you, she’s into asking questions lately. Don’t
be afraid to shut her down if they get too personal.”
“Thanks
for the warning...but I’m sure she just needs some girl talk
and what you find tough, probably is right up my alley...don’t
forget, I deal with Chloe’s questions...not talk about someone
that can dig for information!”
“Yeah, I seem to
remember her having you squirm a few times over the
years...whoops..got to go. See you later.”
Mac stared
at the phone after she hung up. This was an unexpected surprise. She
missed the time she had Harm had been spending together. Mattie
seemed like a good substitute for now - and much more interesting
then figuring out how she felt about Clayton Webb.
LATER
THAT EVENING
HARM’S LOFT
“He really fed you his
meatless meatloaf?” Mac asked Mattie.
“Yes...and I
hate to admit it, it wasn’t that bad. I think if it had a
different name, I would like it better.”
“I agree.
Maybe we should rename it for him.”
“We could try.
I suggested a few things, but he stuck to his guns about it being,
‘Harm’s Meatless Meatloaf.’ Something about it
winning an award with that name.”
Mac rolled her eyes.
“So how are things going for you Mattie?”
Here ,
thought Mattie, was her chance. Reaching in her pocket to activate
the recorded once again, she asked, “Mac, how do you know when
you’re in love?”
“Mattie, with my track
record, I’m not sure I do know anymore...at least I’m not
sure if I can trust my instincts.”
“Why
not?”
“Well, I’ve thought I was in love
before, but each time, it wasn’t enough.”
“How
did you know that?”
“It seems like there always
something that’s pointed that out to me...I thought I loved my
first husband...”
“You’ve been
married?”
“Yes...when I was eighteen.”
“What
happened?”
“We were too young and too drunk to
have good judgement.”
“Did you divorce?”
“Not
right away. There wasn’t a need...until I met someone else that
I thought I loved...but before I could get a divorce, he found out
and I don’t think he ever saw me the same way after that...you
see...I ended up killing him in self defense.”
“Harm
know about it?”
“Oh yeah...our friendship took a
hit from that experience.”
“But you’re still
friends.”
“I think so...hope so. There’s
been a lot happen in our lives since then.”
“Mac,
you and Harm...make a great team. So, have you been in love since
then?”
“Yes. I thought I loved Mic...I did love
Mic...but not enough. I couldn’t give him all my trust. He was
right to walk away, but it really hurt.”
“It
sounds like it hurts to be in love.”
“Sometimes it
does...when you don’t know if the person you love loves you in
return.”
“So do you just tell them how you feel
and see what they do?”
“I use to...but its
embarrassing when they don’t feel the same way. I hate that
feeling.”
“So is there a way to tell when you love
someone...and its real?”
“I think so...Mattie,
I’ve discovered that sometimes it’s the idea of being in
love that’s appealing. It’s important to weight the
evidence. If you find that there’s someone you trust more then
anyone else in the world and the words ‘I love you,’ seem
like the most important thing they can say to you; when you get so
mad you want them to go away for ever while at the same time all you
want is for them to take you in their arms and hold you and take the
loneliness away even when you’re mad at them; when the idea of
losing them takes your breath and your desire to go on another minute
without them while you want to fight to keep hope alive; when you
feel them with you every second of the night and day even when you’re
miles apart...sorry I got a little carried away.”
“You
love Harm like that don’t you?”
“Yes. I
could throttle him most of the time, but there’s no one like
him.”
“Tell him how you feel.”
“No
Mattie...he thinks I say the words too easily to anyone...he’d
never believe me...and I can’t stand the hurt anymore.”
“So
show him.”
“I’ve tried...and failed too many
times...okay...enough of this. Look, I need to go. Tell Harm I’ll
take a rain check on the coffee.”
“I’m sorry
Mac...don’t go.”
“It’s not about you
Mattie. This has been fun and I think we should do this often.”
“Me
too.”
Mattie watched as Mac hurried from the apartment.
She clicked off the recorder, picked up the left overs, left a note
for Harm and returned to her place she shared with Jennifer. She
couldn’t wait to hear what Susan could make of this
recording!
THREE WEEKS LATER
MATTIE’S
SCHOOL
Mattie patted the little recorder in her pocket. She
needed to return it to Susan today. She planned to listen to the
recordings one more time, with Susan, and then she would remove the
tape. She had listened to them on the way to school this morning
again with the earphones. A disturbance in the hall ahead drew her
attention.
“I’m telling you he’s cheating on
you,” Ellie was informing a teary eyed Susan.
“I
want proof.”
“Good luck getting that.”
Susan
spotted Mattie, “ I have an idea how I can get the proof...from
him.”
“Good luck with it then.”
“Thanks.
Mattie...did you bring it?”
“Yes. I need you to
get him on tape admitting that he’s been seeing Barbie.”
“I’ll try.”
LATER THE SAME
DAY
CAFETERIA
Mattie had her hands full when she heard
Peter and Mark talking in the lunch line. “You’re going
to get caught Pete,” Mark warned him.
“I don’t
care.”
“You will if you lose them both.”
“Won’t
happen.”
Mattie reached for her pocket to turn on the
tape recorder. She followed the two guys to get the rest of their
conversation.
“Barbie doesn’t care if she’s
the only girl or not. She puts out for me...Susan doesn’t.”
“But
you and Susan have been dating for years.”
“Yeah,
and it was time to take it to the next level, but she’s not
ready. Until she is, I’ll enjoy what Barbie has to offer and
keep Susan in the dark.”
“Stupid move. What if she
finds out?”
Just then Mattie bumped into the trash can
as she tried to follow them to their seats and cut a corner too
close. The tape player chose to click off at that second, when the
cafeteria seemed to go silent. Mattie froze, but it was too late.
A
teacher on duty heard the whole thing, and escorted Mattie to the
office. “This young woman needs to learn a few rules about
violating privacy rules. Is Mr. Marshall in his office?”
“Have
a seat Mattie,” instructed the secretary. “I’ll
tell him she’s here as soon as he gets off the phone. Do you
have your right up ready Mrs. Weiss?”
“Just tell
him what she did.”
“I’m sorry Mrs. Weiss,
you know the procedure.”
“Fine.”
Mattie
wanted to smile at the teacher’s attitude but knew it was the
wrong move. Harm was going to be so upset with her if he found
out...but maybe when she explained how she was trying to help her
friend by proving her boyfriend’s infidelity he’d have
mercy with her. As long as he didn’t actually hear the
tape...hear his voice and Macs...Mattie felt a touch of hope.
It
was short lived however, when Principal Marshall read the teacher’s
statement and then rewound and listened to a few seconds of Harm’s
comments, fast forwarded to hear more and then again to hear Mac.
Mattie knew she was screwed before he ever heard what the boy had to
say.
BETWEEN PAX RIVER AND WASHINGTON D.C.
SAME
AFTERNOON
“Mac, I know things haven’t gone
smoothly with us for awhile now, but I wish you’d spend some
time with me,” Harm managed to get out the one line he had been
practicing in his head for a few days waiting for a chance to use
it.
“Harm, I do spend time with you. We’ve been
together all day today.”
“But this is work. There
was a time we spent time together as friends outside of work. I miss
it.”
“I know...I do too sometimes.”
“But?”
“But
what?”
“Mac, I heard a ‘but’ in your
statement.”
“Harm, I can’t do this
anymore...be friends...co-workers...I need time to get to know
someone with the same goals I have.”
“And what
would they be?”
“Someone that can put me first and
lets me put them first at times too. Someone that wants a lifetime
partnership with me that won’t be distracted by every blonde or
pretty face that comes along. Some one...” Mac stopped hearing
the cell phone ring before realizing it was Harms. “That won’t
drop everything to play hero for someone and leave me alone.”
“Let
me get this and we’ll continue this conversation...Commander
Rabb....I see...no I understand...we’re on our way back from
Pax River...it will be about forty minutes before we can get
there....please tell her I want the truth when I get
there.”
“Mattie?”
“Yes...I’ll
explain in a minute. Mac, I’ve done a lot of thinking and
growing this past year. I wish you could just give me a chance to
show you I have changed for the better. Have dinner with me
tonight...please?”
“Harm...”
“Please
Mac.” Harm made it a plea.
“Okay...dinner...Now
what’s up with Mattie?”
Harm released a sigh of
relieve that Mac was going to give him the evening at least. He made
a promise to himself that he would find a way to balance his parental
duties and his need to be with Mac.
“It seems she was
caught tape recording people without their knowledge. Mr. Marshall
said that he felt I needed to hear the tape before we discussed the
situation further. Look Mac, I know this isn’t what you agreed
too, but would you come with me? You might have insights I don’t
have.”
“Is that fair to Mattie?”
“She
likes you Mac. I think she’s want you there.”
“I’ll
go, but if I get the idea that she doesn’t want me involved,
I’ll wait outside the office.”
“Fair
enough.”
By silent agreement that tabled the rest of
their conversation, both thinking about what Mattie had done and
searching for a plausible reason for her actions.
MATTIE’S
SCHOOL
PRINCIPAL’S OFFICE
Harm and Mac were an
impressive sight walking into the school office in their dress
uniforms. They used a strong stride with each step, allowing them to
cover ground quickly without appearing to hurry. They appeared
confident, squared away, and to a concerned Mattie, very united. Her
heart sunk knowing her tentative relationship with Mac was about to
take a hit.
Harm and Mac were shown into the Principal’s
office without having a word with Mattie as the Principal had
instructed.
“This is my colleague and friend, Colonel
Sarah Mackenzie. I asked her to join us.”
“Are you
called Mac by any chance?” Mr. Marshall
asked.
“Yes...why?”
“Then its
important that you’re here too as you’re involved.”
“I
am? Would explain how?”
“In a moment it will
become obvious. Have a seat and listen.”
Harm and
Mac exchanged puzzled glances and the tape started. Harm heard his
own voice on the tape saying, “You’re too young for a
boyfriend Mattie.”
His heart sank...Mattie had taped
that conversation between them weeks ago. The one that had made him
think it was time to try once more with Mac. Frozen in his seat, he
heard their words again.
“Come on Harm...I’m
trying to be prepared when it happens to me. I see kids at school
claiming to be in love one day and not the next and then others that
you just know are. How do they know and what kinds of things can
trick you?”
“Don’t you have an easy question
for me?”
“Nope, not tonight.”
“Alright...let’s
see...well, I guess when I take the time to think how I would feel if
that person was never in my life again and it seems too painful to
think about...I know that I have a bond with the person. Sometimes
its just friendship though, unless you find that you want to be
physically close to the person as well. I sometimes don’t
always know myself at first but them when it hits you...well lets
just say that when you find it in yourself to walk away from someone
so they can find happiness when all you want to do it hold them close
to you...you know.”
“You mean you want to kiss
them and make out with them?”
“Mattie! You’re
too young for me to discuss stuff like that with you.”
“No
I’m not. Is that what happened with Mac? Did she want something
she thought would make her happy so you let her go?”
“Yes...how
did this become about me and Mac?”
“You do love
her though right?”
“Yes...”
Mr.
Marshall stopped Harm’s voice and fast forwarded again. This
time it was Mac’s voice they heard.
“...I’ve
discovered that sometimes it’s the idea of being in love that’s
appealing. It’s important to weight the evidence. If you find
that there’s someone you trust more then anyone else in the
world and the words ‘I love you,’ seem like the most
important thing they can say to you; when you get so mad you want
them to go away for ever while at the same time all you want is for
them to take you in their arms and hold you and take the loneliness
away even when you’re mad at them; when the idea of losing them
takes your breath and your desire to go on another minute without
them while you want to fight to keep hope alive; when you feel them
with you every second of the night and day even when you’re
miles apart...sorry I got a little carried away.”
“You
love Harm like that don’t you?”
“Yes. I could
throttle him most of the time, but there’s no one like
him.”
“Tell him how you feel.”
“No
Mattie...he thinks I say the words too easily to anyone...he’d
never believe me...and I can’t stand the hurt anymore.”
“So
show him.”
“I’ve tried...and failed too many
times..”
“Stop the tape!” Mac stood, ready
to run yet unable to move. It wasn’t Harm’s touch that
held her in place, it was the potential damage she could do to Mattie
emotionally if it wasn’t handle well. “I’m
sorry...how many other people are on that tape?”
“Just
the boys she was caught taping today.”
“Boys? What
boys?” Harm asked going on full parental alert.
“It
seems Mattie was taping them, without their knowledge, to get proof
that one of them was cheating on his girlfriend that happens to be
one of Mattie’s friends. The taped clicked off, the boys heard
it raised a ruckus and told the teacher on lunch duty.”
“How
much trouble is Mattie in with the school?” Harm
asked.
“Mattie’s suffered enough waiting to hear
what you have to say from my point of view. She’ll get off with
a warning from me. The students will shun her probably, not trusting
her not to record them too...or they could support what she tried to
do for her friend. High school students are sometimes a challenge to
predict.”
“So I’m finding out. So we can
take her with us?”
“Yes, and I’ll expect her
back in school tomorrow.”
“She’ll be here.
Mac, are you okay?”
“For now...why don’t you
take me home before you talk to her?”
“Because we
have plans and she’s not going to ruin them. Besides, she needs
to face both of us and then we need to talk...alone.”
Mr.
Marshall watched the military couple walk out of his office knowing
that Mattie would be dealt with fairly and in a meaningful way. He
didn’t envy that young lady as she faced her actions.
Outside
the office Harm kept walking past Mattie as he announced, “On
my six, now young lady and not a word just yet.”
Mac
gestured to Mattie to follow them, not sure the young girl would get
the military vocabulary Harm threw her way. Mattie fell in behind
them and quietly got in the back seat of the Navy issue car they were
using.
Once underway, Harm glanced in the rearview mirror at
Mattie. “I tend to lead with my emotions Mattie and say things
that later I want to take back and can’t...so I expect you to
go to your room when we get home and give me some time to cool off
before we talk. Understand?”
“Yes.”
“Good.
We’ll come get you when we’re ready to talk and then you
will face both of us and explain why you have done this.”
“Yes
Harm.”
It was a silent ride back to their street, north
of Union Station.
TWENTY MINUTES LATER
HARM’s
LOFT
“Was that little speech for my benefit?” Mac
asked.
“Speech?”
“Yeah...about
leading with your emotions?”
“Oh that...maybe a
little be for you...but also to let Mattie know how upset I am. I
don’t think hollering at her will help anything...and you know
more then anyone how stupid I get when I’m upset.”
“You
have done that a few times,” Mac admitted with a little smile.
She knew Harm didn’t really intend to hurt her and that he felt
bad when he did. Still it hurt when she thought about those gems,
even now.
“Mac, I wish I could take those words back. I
can’t, so please accept my sincerest apology and know that I am
trying to work on that part of me.”
“I see you
are. You’re a good dad, Harm.”
“I hope so.
It’s times like this, that I just don’t know.”
“What
bothers you the most?”
“You were embarrassed by
it...and she shared privileged information.”
“Was
it true...what you said?”
“Yes. What about
you?”
Yes...I wonder what else you said?”
“Shall
we listen to the whole tape?”
“I think we
should.”
Together they listened to the tape as they
prepared food for the oven and their dinner. When the tape ended,
they looked at each other. Harm spoke first.
“After we
deal with Mattie, you and I need to talk. It sounds like we’re
on the same page but facing away from one another. You game to talk
about this more later?”
“Yes.”
“Good.
I want to know why Mattie felt she needed to do this.”
Harm
decided to call her and tell her to come over as opposed to going to
get her. Mac and Harm presented a united front when she walked
through the door.
“Sit down Matilda.” Harm nodded
to the chair. Mac sat on the sofa and Harm perched on the coffee
table after the teenagers sat down.
“I’m sorry. I
know you’re upset with me...”
“We are Mattie.
I’m sure you are sorry...but what I want to know is why you did
it?”
Harm waited never breaking eye contact with her.
“I
wanted to figure out why you two weren’t really together.”
“Mattie, that’s our business, not yours. I’ve
told you that when you’ve pried before.”
Mattie
met Harm’s eyes even though he was intense and large as he
loomed in front of her, his elbows on his knees, his hands gesturing
at times. “I know...its just I wanted Susan to hear the kind of
mixed messages you sent and I thought we could figure out a way for
the two of you to work things out.”
“Mattie, I’m
going to tell you again, its not up to you to pry into our feelings
and thoughts, to record us with out our knowledge and then share that
private information with other people. Do you know how embarrassing
that was for Mac, to hear her thoughts played on a tape in front of
not only strangers but a friend?”
“I think I have
an idea,” Mattie mumbled feeling about as humiliated at the
moment as she ever had.
Mac decided at that moment to
intervene. “Mattie, why is it so important to you for Harm and
I to work things out?”
“Because Harm’s not
happy...not really...but when he talks about things you’ve done
together, or cases you’ve worked on...he seems happier.”
“And
that means a lot to you?” Mac asked gently.
“Yes...I
mean, Harm’s done so much to make my life better...and you’ve
made sure that it happened...I wanted to do something as important to
help him.”
Harm and Mac exchanged looks. Mac saw Harm’s
face soften and she knew that whether Mattie had gone about it the
right way or not, things between the two adults in Mattie’s
world was about to change.
“Mattie, do you understand
that you’ve broken a trust that Mac and I both had with
you?”
“Yes.”
“I don’t
want you to ever pull a stunt like this again.”
“I
won’t.”
“Alright then. I’m a firm
believer in the punishment fitting the deed, so for the next two
weeks you won’t use any device that involves recordings...not
MP3 players, CDs, videos, DVDs, answering machine messages, voice
mail...get the gist?”
“Yes Harm.”
“Good...then
lets have dinner.”
“Can I take mine back to my
room?”
“No. You’ll eat with us and then you
can go after the dishes are done.”
TWO HOURS
LATER
HARM’S LOFT
“Coffee?”
“I’d
rather have tea I think...do you mind?”
“Not at
all. Do you think I was too rough on Mattie?”
“Not
really. Two weeks might be too long. See how it goes for a week and
then if she sticks to it, you might loosen up a little for the second
week.”
“Okay. What about you? Ready to talk about
what we said?”
“Yes. Harm, when I said we would
never work out...I didn’t mean I never wanted to have anything
to do with you.”
“I know Mac...now...but I was so
hurt. It took me such a long time to accept that what was between us
was more then friendship and being partners. It shook my world to
realize that I wanted you. I was afraid if you knew then I’d
lose you completely...but then it seemed as if I had anyway.”
“I
know Harm...and that’s not what I wanted at all. I needed to
know that you wanted me...that you could love me...and that my
judgement about men wasn’t all that bad.”
“But
I kept doing and saying the wrong thing, didn’t I?”
“Yes.
Did you mean it?”
“That I love you?” Mac
nodded. Harm smiled slowly, “I do mean it. Have you really
loved me all these years?”
“Yes...I just was
waiting for you to stop seeing me as your pal and notice me as a
woman...but please don’t call me Sarah.”
“It’s
a beautiful name.”
“Thank you...but I’m your
‘Mac’...you’re the only one that says my name the
way you do.”
“Are you really mine?” Harm
whispered, hardly daring to believe what he was hearing, even after
having heard her confession on Mattie’s tape.
“If
you want me.”
Mac was never sure if she moved closer to
Harm or if he moved toward her. She only knew that she was finally in
his arms and he was kissing her again. Gone was the desperation of
the kiss on the Admiral’s porch or the reserve of the kiss
under the mistletoe. There was no doubt in anyone’s mind that
he was kissing her and not a ghost from his past.
When Harm
lifted his lips from hers and looked into Mac’s face, he saw
the love she had for him shining in her eyes. He couldn’t stop
the thousand watt smile from lighting his own face.
“I
love you Mac...and I know there are obstacles we’ll need to
work out...but let’s get married.”
“Isn’t
that suppose to be a question?” Mac whispered against his
lips.
“Probably...but I’m a little afraid to ask
in case you don’t have the answer I want.”
“What
if I promise you’ll like my answer?”
“Okay...will
you marry me?”
“Yes....I love you Harm...and
Mattie.”
“Even after this stunt?”
“Maybe
even more because of it.”
“Please don’t let
her know that, Mac....where’s her tape recorder?”
“They
gave you the tape and returned the recorder to her
friend.”
“Good...I’m making her wait for two
weeks before I tell her the results of her little escaped.”
“Does
that mean we can’t announce to the world we’re getting
married yet?”
“Sorry...we can tell the Admiral and
get him started on finding new assignments for us.”
“What
if we have to leave JAG?”
“Then its been a great
ride, but it will mean its time to move on. IS that a deal breaker
for you?” Harm still held Mac in his arms, but he loosened his
hold to look into her face.
“No...I’ve wanted this
for two long.”
“Yeah? I think I did too, Mac, but
I just didn’t realize as soon as you did...not consciously at
least. It kind of snuck up on me and hit me in the head.”
“Well
we both have had some problems with language. Only you and me would
have trouble with words like yet and never.”
“I
think I know the perfect way to tell Mattie.”
“Really?”
“Yeah...I’m
going to leave a message on her voice mail that she won’t be
able to retrieve for at least a week...and if she gets it sooner,
she’ll have to sit on it without telling anyone until the
time’s up or she’ll give herself away.”
“You’re
evil Harm!” Mac said laughing, “ But I love it.”
“I
love you. We’re going to make a great family and I’m
looking forward to adding to it.”
Mac reached for her
pocket book and pulled out her cell phone. She punched in Harm’s
number and stopped him from answering it so it would go into his
voice mail.
“Harm, its Mac. I love you. Save this
message to play anytime you have doubts.”
Harm wouldn’t
need that message to remember. He’d have the memories of Mac in
his arms as they loved the night away.
Lost in each other
they missed the apartment door quietly closing and Mattie pumping her
fist in the air as she hurried back to the place she shared with Jen
smiling from ear to ear.
The consequences of her actions
melted away knowing her intervention had worked like nothing had
before. It was worth Harm’s wrath for a couple of weeks knowing
he would be happier for it in the long run.
THE
END
**********************
Prompt: Mattie Grace is
at it again. She borrows a mini-tape recorder from a friend. She
plans to ask Harm and then later, Mac, the question: When do you know
you're in love? Secretly, she tapes the replies from Harm and Mac. A
few days (weeks) later, she gets caught recording private
conversations in school. the prinicpal calls Harm, Mac tags along for
moral support The principal plays the recordings on the tape
recorder, Harm and Mac listen to their answers.